

Not only am I posting a cute pic of Jack, but I am throwing in a picture of Henry for good measure.
The shot of Henry was taken while Brent was in POST, the Idaho State police academy. H liked to wear Daddy's tattoos.
Jack has already grown so much since this picture was taken in January. I can't believe how many skills he is gaining! He is this close to crawling! He scoots! Forward! (He's had backward down for a while now, but forward just came yesterday.)
This is one mom who is not quite ready for my boys to just shoot up like weeds while I'm away at work! I LOVE that Henry and Jack are growing and developing normally, but I HATE that I have to miss so much of it. But I am trusting the Lord for not only the strength to make the right decisions, but also the ability to live with the consequences. I think that the thing that is keeping me from feeling too deprived is that I made a decision to go back to work full time so we could pay off our debt more quickly. I can live with the consequences if I remember the purpose for them. And the choice to work full time for a while longer really makes me feel closer to Brent. I think it is partly because we are both striving together to reach the same goal. If he can do it, so can I. I just miss them. It helps that I have a great job.
The other thing that help is it's not like our boys suffer. We have the most wonderful childcare imaginable. If any boys are more blessed than mine in the grandparent department, I'd be shocked. I love and feel hugely blessed by my parents and Brent's parents.
Okay... I'm going to bed. Actually, I'm going to go wake up Jack and nurse him, maybe change his diaper (we'll see how wet he is, how crabby he is, and how tired I feel; it's a complex algorithm), go wash my face, brush my teeth, make a few faces at myself in the mirror (have to check my teeth for plaque and poke around for unsightlys and eliminate them if at all possible, which involves some really attractive facial expressions) and finally fall into bed, trying to remember to reset my radio station on my alarm clock (Henry set it to hispanic music this morning). :)